Deprivation

Darkness cascades over my mind,
Like the sun dropping below the horizon.
The stars are even blanketed with clouds,
It gets dark really fast.

Cloudy thinking.

There isn't a soul around with a candle,
To try to break the darkness.
It's me fighting the monsters in my mind.

Alone.

Anguish constricts my heart.
I feel like I could die. 
I want to.

And there you are in your own world,
Nearby and yet so far.

Clueless.

I doubt you could see me if you tried.
You can't see the forest for the trees. 
I wonder who really has cloudy thinking.

I fight for me.
I grovel in the dark and find a weapon,
Something to combat this assault within.

Like.
Love.
Love myself as I am. 
Something you can't seem to do.

I'll be out of the shadows by morning,
Arising stronger than ever.

I went to the depths of hell,
And saved my own soul.

No thanks to you.

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