Flip side

I wonder how to do this
How to survive this
This thing called life
I'm broken
And rather confused
Lost in time
Tossed to and fro
By this thing 
Aptly called life
It throws me up
And throws me down
Burns my heart
And freezes my soul
It's ugly
It defies me
It jumps
It squanders
I lie and I die
A thousand deaths
On the inside
Fighting this thing
Called life
It's ugly
It's hideous
It abhors me
And gores me
This is what it does
This life thing
Then I slip
I fall
And I see
The flip side
It's a tide
And a stride
An echo lost
A wannabe
Jekyll and Hyde
Evil unbound
Unwrapped
Unleashed
Beautifully tragic
Turned into purpose
With mysteries revealed
Spirits set free 
And I am 
In the middle
Of it all
It's always been
My choice 
The side I see

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