Hell sorrow

Depth of sorrow 
Surpassing sadness
Grief can not explain
Far more reaching
Gut-wrenching
Knocked to the ground
Barely breathing
Nobody gets this
And I'm left alone
My heart is shattered
And all I can think of
Is this shitty human
Can I scream at you
And say, "Go to hell!"
You don't understand
You're lost in your drama
And I'm here crying
Baring my heart
Wanting a mere friend
And finding you don't
"So go to hell!"
I'll find a way
Nails in the dirt
Clawing my way 
Up this damn hill
Of absolute sorrow
Wishing I could die
But finding I can't
Let me reiterate
"Go to hell!"
I wanted you here
But you don't want to be
I swear you're heartless
So I'll thank the gods
I'm not like you
I actually feel pain
My sorrow is immense
But someday
So will be my laughter
Don't you dare come around
I won't need you then
"Just go to hell!"

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